Struggling

When your cohorts’ perception is that you are not being a team player, you are asked to straighten up and fly right by the captain. You try to conform to their game, but, then, you realize that the game you thought you were supposed to be playing is not the same game the team is playing. And you are not sure who is playing the "correct" game. (If there is such a thing as a correct game).

Your concerns appear to be heard, but some of the captain’s actions indicate otherwise. You observe, make mental notes, and follow the adage: “If you can’t say anything nice, then don’t say anything at all.” Thus, exasperating the illusion that you are not a player. As a team, when you are together, all the cues say the game is being played correctly, but when the captain is gone, or not viewing, or is perceived to be gone, then the game changes to “all animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others” . The demeanor becomes “What the captain doesn’t know, won’t hurt us,” under the guise of “I get my work done.” And who is going to tell?

Since I live in a glass house of my own, i.e., writing this while projects wait, when is enough, well, enough. Where is the trust? Where is the line to be crossed and should it be crossed?